Post by Desladon on Jun 5, 2006 4:59:28 GMT 1
My name is Desladonus Narisolin Atool. Although in this incarnation I am a young man named Ben many years ago I lived in the realms of angels. I was an arch angel and served as member of the home guard, standing watch over the very gates of heaven. How do i know this? I'll tell you.
When i was 12 years old i had a dream that would forever change my life, for before that dream i always felt different from all the rest but i never knew why. In my dream I began by standing in a room that was in many ways just an average room, no windows, square, one door, the walls were plain and off white, maybe a bit grey. I did not spend long in this room before walking through the door, it was when i did this that i came into another room, much bigger, much brighter, with another door at the opposite end and someone was standing in this room. It was my grandmother, my great grandmother, she had passed on 4 years earlier and she stood before me as she had before the cancer had forced her between the choices of wheelchair and bed. Although she still looked old as i had always known her she was healthy and very much alive. As many questions ran through my mind she raised her hand to silence me and simply said, "I am fine, please tell the others (my family) there is somebody who needs to speak with you more than me." She then pointed to the other door, i gave her a hug, just like the great bear hugs she'd always given, almost couldnt believe a little old woman could hug like that. Then i proceeded through the door.
This room was much different, because it wasnt a room the space seemed to open up and continue on forever, endless. I could still see the outline of the door behind me, but it was almost like it was fading in and out between being there and not. Now in the midst of all this space there stood a figure, at first i couldnt see who it was but as i got closer i saw that it was a doll i had always thought was a doll of god when i was a young boy, this time though it was life sized, and it was alive, it stood by a mini replica of our solar system, or maybe it was our solar system, but the earth stood out the most. I looked at the figure before me and asked one question, "Why am I here?" He gestured toward the earth and gave me one very simple answer, "They will need you." My mind again began racing with questions, but before i could ask he spoke again, "You will know what to do when you must. But now you must go." I was confused for a moment, but then i turned and walked for the door, opening it I looked back at this scene one last time and walked through the door, through the room i had met my grandmother in and back into where i had started from, it was then that i woke up.
For a couple of years i believed that i had in fact met god, and due to this i studied christianity and tried to find my purpose there, but i found that this never really worked for me. I often told people of my dream, and how i believed that i had a higher calling, but often i was met with a mixture of skepticism and even jealousy and hatred. I had two more dreams but none where i felt that i was talking to the source again. In one i met an angel, and he told me that he had been sent to protect me, for i have a mission, and until i have completed it I must stay. This angel was one that i had known in my past life as Desladon, his name is Narrillun and additionally one of my other spirit guides is my younger sister, Maslamont. It is through communication with these two spirit guides that i have come to understand who i was and who I must be.
In the second dream I was shown the darker side of things, i experienced all of the evils of man first hand and how it feels to commit these evils, many times having justification for why it was alright, as most who do bad things have. Now I am 19 years old, and after soul searching for 7 years I know what i must do. I cannot save the earth, because no one man can do that, no matter what anyone says, but one soul, one person, one person can inspire change and thought, and once these things start to catch on they expand and gain a life of their own. I dont think that I am superior in any way shape or form, because I am simply the sum total of all my experiences, both as the eternal soul of Desladon and the flash of existence that is Ben, we are all the same, its just the path that has changed us.
But the one thing that may make me in some way special is what these experiences have given me, I want above all to help mankind. I would be willing to accept an eternity of damnation unto myself if i could provide salvation for a single innocent soul. If i have to spend the rest of my life figuring it out I will figure out how to do true magic, and once I do I will impart that wisdom onto others, for we are in an age where miracles are more needed than ever.
~Desladon
When i was 12 years old i had a dream that would forever change my life, for before that dream i always felt different from all the rest but i never knew why. In my dream I began by standing in a room that was in many ways just an average room, no windows, square, one door, the walls were plain and off white, maybe a bit grey. I did not spend long in this room before walking through the door, it was when i did this that i came into another room, much bigger, much brighter, with another door at the opposite end and someone was standing in this room. It was my grandmother, my great grandmother, she had passed on 4 years earlier and she stood before me as she had before the cancer had forced her between the choices of wheelchair and bed. Although she still looked old as i had always known her she was healthy and very much alive. As many questions ran through my mind she raised her hand to silence me and simply said, "I am fine, please tell the others (my family) there is somebody who needs to speak with you more than me." She then pointed to the other door, i gave her a hug, just like the great bear hugs she'd always given, almost couldnt believe a little old woman could hug like that. Then i proceeded through the door.
This room was much different, because it wasnt a room the space seemed to open up and continue on forever, endless. I could still see the outline of the door behind me, but it was almost like it was fading in and out between being there and not. Now in the midst of all this space there stood a figure, at first i couldnt see who it was but as i got closer i saw that it was a doll i had always thought was a doll of god when i was a young boy, this time though it was life sized, and it was alive, it stood by a mini replica of our solar system, or maybe it was our solar system, but the earth stood out the most. I looked at the figure before me and asked one question, "Why am I here?" He gestured toward the earth and gave me one very simple answer, "They will need you." My mind again began racing with questions, but before i could ask he spoke again, "You will know what to do when you must. But now you must go." I was confused for a moment, but then i turned and walked for the door, opening it I looked back at this scene one last time and walked through the door, through the room i had met my grandmother in and back into where i had started from, it was then that i woke up.
For a couple of years i believed that i had in fact met god, and due to this i studied christianity and tried to find my purpose there, but i found that this never really worked for me. I often told people of my dream, and how i believed that i had a higher calling, but often i was met with a mixture of skepticism and even jealousy and hatred. I had two more dreams but none where i felt that i was talking to the source again. In one i met an angel, and he told me that he had been sent to protect me, for i have a mission, and until i have completed it I must stay. This angel was one that i had known in my past life as Desladon, his name is Narrillun and additionally one of my other spirit guides is my younger sister, Maslamont. It is through communication with these two spirit guides that i have come to understand who i was and who I must be.
In the second dream I was shown the darker side of things, i experienced all of the evils of man first hand and how it feels to commit these evils, many times having justification for why it was alright, as most who do bad things have. Now I am 19 years old, and after soul searching for 7 years I know what i must do. I cannot save the earth, because no one man can do that, no matter what anyone says, but one soul, one person, one person can inspire change and thought, and once these things start to catch on they expand and gain a life of their own. I dont think that I am superior in any way shape or form, because I am simply the sum total of all my experiences, both as the eternal soul of Desladon and the flash of existence that is Ben, we are all the same, its just the path that has changed us.
But the one thing that may make me in some way special is what these experiences have given me, I want above all to help mankind. I would be willing to accept an eternity of damnation unto myself if i could provide salvation for a single innocent soul. If i have to spend the rest of my life figuring it out I will figure out how to do true magic, and once I do I will impart that wisdom onto others, for we are in an age where miracles are more needed than ever.
~Desladon
